Immediately following her divorce from her husband Paddy, Christine McGuinness makes a risky disclosure.
In an Instagram statement to her fans on Wednesday, the former model Christine, 34, said she is "really not fine" and "not a hundred percent" after her split and said she is "very afraid" to attend the NTAs on Thursday in light of their split.
Before the couple's shocking breakup in August, the model personality, who has been with Paddy for eleven years and is the mother of his three children, videotaped herself sipping coffee in the car.
a worried "Hey everyone, I just thought I'd come on and say hey," Christine said. It has been some while. I am aware of my silence. I know the most of you are aware of the numerous things I have going on.
It's been great to hear from so many of you, which I really, really appreciate. Thank you a lot. I'll be truthful.
I won't be lying. Not going to say anything right now "I'm good. Just a little period of alone for me ". I'm not at all okay.
I've had way too much on my plate lately, but things are going well. I've missed chatting about myself on here, but I'm experiencing more good days than bad ones right now. Every day I talk to myself, but I had no idea how much of an outlet I found on Instagram.
She continued, "I miss doing that so I'm going to try and be a little bit more active because before I used to come on and just chat trash every day.
"Right now I'm not feeling 100% myself, so I definitely will keep having little quiet spells, but I am doing okay," she said.
This Thursday night at the National Television Awards, Christine is scheduled to walk the red carpet.
She acknowledged that she was worried about going because Paddy would be there as well.
On a more positive note, I'm attending the NTAs tomorrow, she muttered before hiding her face with her palm. I'm quite nervous because I was nominated for the documentary Patrick and I created with our kids. Simply because of everything, I'm rather anxious.
